Posted @ 5:43 PM, Friday, June 5, 2009

nevermind this title.;

pfft.
in this holidays, im stuck in my very tiny secluded world.
last time - i have infinitely many many things to do on comp.
now - i keep doing the same stuff, just to check again.
not that i don't do anything not related to comps.
studying... is not my top choice.
outings... i've given up on them. for whatever reason.
school... it's an everyday thing.
friends... -owwie- i seemed to have lost many of them...

Maybe it's just me, and maybe i just don't think like other people.
i think i might actually socialise better if i join the not-so-smart group of people.

maybe me announcing myself as antisocial last time was... er... not-so-true.
but now it's probably true.

i've lost much of my humour.
i've lost much of that chemistry with my friends. (or maybe it just wasn't there all along...)

there are just many feelings and emotions i have inside that i can't spell cause' i can't find the right words.

much as i would like to live this wonderous happy life, well, all i can say is it only happens on specific days.

this *very nobody-visits* blog, which i average out to have about 3 people visiting (excl. myself) each day, no comments.

and my facebook receives an approximate of maybe let's say 10 notifications per day... patheticccc.

hopefully i'll find my turning point that will change my life completely...
right...

my heart has just grown harder.



ahBeaR;